Suffocation... No breathing.

I just need a moment to relax my poor brain.

*Inhale - exhale. Inhale - exhale. Breathe. Breathe.*

Except for the 5 hours of sleep I got last night (Jack woke up twice during that time period, so it wasn't really even restful), the two dinners I have cooked, and the time it has taken me to travel from point A to B to C to A to B to A, I have literally spent every moment of the last 48 hours doing schoolwork or internship stuff. And on top of that, I got sick from Jack. I'm just trying to keep my head above water, so I'm not drowning by the time I get to the end of the semester.

But I still have to somehow come up with 15 extra internship hours, other than the 75 I already have planned for the rest of the semester. I have 2 tests this week. I have a 20 hour project, which I'm 5 hours into. A 16 hour project, which I'm basically zero hours into. And then I have to do research, make a survey, get approval to distribute the survey (up to a 2 week process), and then write a report - all for my senior thesis, because I decided to do something more "useful" and change my topic at the last minute. Luckily, the projects and senior thesis aren't due until the last day of the semester, but it's still a lot of work I have to do RIGHT NOW! Oh yeah, and I have to make time to take care of my family and be nice.

Bad news: Jack knows when I am stressed and becomes super clingy and super grumpy. Juan is also swamped. BYU doesn't have spring break. My throat is killing me. My nose is running. I think I might die.

Good news: I probably won't die. Both my boys went to sleep at 7 tonight. I have a box of Oreos to get me through the night. Jack will have made it through his first year of life this Saturday! I'm going to be graduating soon and I'll never have to deal with this again!

Only 6.5 weeks to go.

P.S. This was more for my sanity to vent all of my frustration than for any real enjoyment. Sorry for the inconvenience. :)

Life with RSV

Jack has RSV. His nose is super runny and he has a terrible cough and usually wakes up with a fever in the middle of the night. The sad thing is that there is little to nothing I can do about it, and it can take up to three WEEKS to go away. We are on day #2. We've stocked up on tylenol, hooked up the humidifier and we got his suctioning clinic prescription... (a prescription that allows him to get suctioned if he can't breathe in the middle of the night... well, that's comforting... not).

We need a grandma.